Do you ever get that feeling that you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong, either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world, it would be to be alone. At least when you’re alone, no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take “I don’t know” for an answer.
There are lots of positives when you are by yourself. Being alone means you can move at your own pace. You can get up when you want, do what you want, when you want, and basically don’t have to cater to anyone else. It’s all about YOU.
Spending your time with others always requires a degree of compromise—everyone needs to agree on a rough plan that roughly suits the group’s preferences. And sure, this might align with your own preferences some of the time, but it doesn’t always. When you learn to enjoy being alone instead of fearing it, you see that solitude gives you the opportunity to pursue your most eccentric hobbies and your truest passions—without having to compromise for anyone.
Sometimes being alone is exactly what you want to do and you feel the way you do just because. You wonder if the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, (or is this your new self?) but until then all you can do is wait. Be patient, because this happens to everyone at some time. Or maybe you just might like your quiet time and plan for more of it in your busy schedule. Either way, you are a winner!
Remember that tomorrow is a new day, a new chance to figure out what you really enjoy in life.